morning after crazydreams II

i am, and have always been, endlessly fascinated by dreams. while i've read some dramatic books about subconscious messages, and chapters in textbooks on various physiological and psychological theories, nothing has sufficiently proven to me why i wake up some mornings chuckling at the absurdity...

a few months ago, i was describing a particularly vivid dream i'd had the previous night to a couple of girlfriends. in turn, each of them related how they, too, had been dreaming rather intensely for the preceding night or two. one of them piped up that her mom --who's kindof flaky in an astrologico-spiritual sortof way-- believes there are certain times of the year when the sleeping mind is profoundly effected by the universe. this thought has stayed with me, and on mornings like today i wonder if said universe is trying to tell me something, and what crazy dreams it must be sending to my pals...

you see, last night i dreamed i was in a vegas hotel room... the heavy pink curtains disturbed by the wind entering through an open window... i'm lying on a big ol' round bed... oh, and i'm undenyably pregnant...

i turn to my laptop in effort to decipher what the fuck is going on in my head:

www.sleeps.com
"If the dreamer is a woman and you dream you are pregnant then you will see a big increase in your income, but if you are unwed and sad you will experience losses."

www.dreammoods.com
"To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. This may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal."

www.soulfuture.com
"Dreaming of being pregnant may indicate incubating a new project, relationship or cycle within. Manifesting your desires. A guidance dream heralding an actual pregnancy. A desire to be pregnant."

www.ivillage.co.uk
"If you are a younger woman who dreams of getting pregnant, but has no waking intention of doing so, it is likely that you are working through an archetypal transition into a new self-awareness"

www.findyourfate.com
"For a woman to dream that she is pregnant, denotes that she will be unhappy with her husband, and her children would be unattractive."

so i guess, in the end, i'm on the verge of something. or the loss of something. or my future children are gonna be ugly...
[sometimes it would be nice to flip to the end to see how it all turns out]

*sigh*

the perfect man (continued)...

it has been clearly far too long since my last post, and i've had a jumble of topic ideas floating around my grey matter for the past few weeks that i've got neither the patience, nor the mental capacity to attempt to process right now... but i did want to make mention that i was thinking about a lot of stuff on the train back from montreal yesterday, and it's exactly this incoherent clutter that is largely the reason i so enjoy riding the rails...

the best part of the trek was that i had DECISIVELY concluded which cinematic male character was the ultimate guy for me. but, of course, now i can't remember... it wasn't johnny castle (swayze) from "dirty dancing" like it was back in '86. it wasn't lloyd dobler (cusack) in the 1989 flick "say anything", even though chuck klosterman came up with an entire chapter's worth of reasons why it should be [note: "sex drugs & cocoa puffs" is actually worth reading... if you only peruse this section]. i'd be tempted to say it was j.m barrie (depp) in last year's "finding neverland," since that was the film we were viewing as we departed quebec, but i find that slightly disappointing and desire for a better answer....

*sigh*

if someone can remind me, it would be greatly appreciated...